I wanna tell you that everything has changed since my last blog post two years ago, that I got everything I wanted and needed. But those statement are for fairy tales and I'm no fairy tale princess.
Borderline personality disorder and depression still accompany me everyday and I'm trying my best to recover or just to make better choices. I decided to not hide anymore, I posted my real picture on twitter and make this new website. I really hope it's successful and I can work and expend it, knowing I am of service and maybe some kind of small help. BPD is hard enough and no one needs to feel alone in it. I suppose, it's my way of connecting with the world too. I don't have many friends and deeper, trusting connections with others are still a major struggle.
For two days I felt a little manic in the excitement of releasing my new website, knowing full well that when I press the "publish" button nothing would really happen. But anxiety has no logic - or maybe it was another step in my acceptance of me?
I want this website to be of use to others. Something they look forward to reading. I have so many plans for this website which include forum, chat room, 1 on 1 chat, and eventually growing into my very own non profit and NGO helping people with variety of mental health issues all over europe with free counseling and group therapy skill training. Thats my 10 year plan. Gosh.... how am I going to get this done?
First thought is - by asking for help. So I would like to ask all of you to please help by stopping by the website once in a while, commenting and letting me know what helps you feel included or supported. I know that together we can all make this a place of great connection and support
I know borderline personality disorder, depression, and anxiety won't leave me and I'm trying to give my life meaning beyond and despite of my diagnosis.
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